I fell.

Why am I waiting for you to see I'm alive?

You know. I guess I should have seen this coming my way. Nothing is perfect. Nothing tends to work out as I hope it does. But that's life. It goes on and I go on. But an answer would be nice. An explanation.

You will blaze your path, hopefully. And I'll go on, again, blazing mine. I'll be happy to see you again if I do.

Went to Georgia, I loved it. I realized how much I really do despise Florida. It is December and it was in the mid-eighties today. The weather has got to be playing some cruel joke on us. I just don't understand why it is so hot here. If you live in the snow ridden areas and hate it and wish you could be at the beach in the sunny hot weather let me know. We can trade for a while, you'll soon see how horridly hot it is. We can do that whole "Holiday" trade thing like the movie. It'll be great.

This school year, although I am not enjoying it so much, is going to be good from here on out. Exams are over, winter break is here, and next semester is going to be tough. But I will fight till the death. I will get through it and on to the summer semester. Then I will be doing something incredible and amazing and I am just in such a happy bubble from it that I forget about my regular life sometimes. I will be going to Austria to study for a semester. It is going to be a lot of money. So I'm trying to figure out some ways to make money. I made a donation widget from Chipin.com , but I don't see much coming from that. But it is worth a shot. If you have extra money give it to me please? I am going to have a garage sale and sell a bunch of crap that I really don't need. I am going to live off of spaghettios and ramen noodles for the next months and clip coupons and work like a maniac. http://www.slideshare.net/secret/uHw399xRaShmii

So Austria is all I have in sight. My blinders are up and so is my armor. Can't break through. I will be in Austria in 7 months and I can't wait. I'm over it. I'm over being left out and forgotten. I did something recently that I have never ever done. I talked to a complete stranger about not small talk. I thought he was good looking and I spoke to him for that very reason. I was so nervous and worked up about it, but it was fine. There is nothing to be afraid of. No regrets. I've got some resolutions in mind, and that's one.

Oh and I'm really mad that I have gotten so used to my iPhone correcting every word I incorrectly write, because I have come to think that all electronics do it... but they don't. So I keep on typing when I've made a mistake and assume that it will take care of itself. Then I look back at an entry or a message and realize I look like a moron, but I just get so antsy about typing. I will slow down, or at least try. Enjoy it.

I am listening to Sinatra right now, he would probably have some good advice to give me.