My birthday was recent and I just don't understand how I am 20. I don't feel like I should be 20. I feel 16 still. I mean I am independent. I pay for everything on my own and don't ask for help. I am in college, work 5 days a week and have my own house and dog. But I still feel like a little lost kid. I am never sure of what I want in life. I want to accomplish so many things, but I also want to be done with school. I want to travel, but have no one to travel with. I want to meet people from all over the world and see all of it as well. I guess I will be lost for a while. I just feel so bad about myself when I meet people who are younger than me and seem like they are on the path they know is right and have hit no potholes along the way. How do I get like that? I am so depressed with the situation of my life. I mean day to day is just fine, I love the people I live with, nothing is particularly wrong in my life but I just don't see why my life isn't awesome. I don't have good friends anymore. Maybe 2 or 3. I don't enjoy a lot of people that I used to. I get very annoyed very easily. And I am horribly indecisive. I just want to go to work and enjoy it and come home and play with my dog. Maybe have a BBQ every once in a while. I am very okay with being alone and it frightens me.